Everton Mark Pellington

How can I start this entry? …

I would start it with your typical “about me”, but I’m not.

I’m a smoker. I don’t really label myself “a smoker” because in my book: I only smoke weed; nothing else. But, since I inhale smoke into my lungs, I’m a smoker. I have an one in eight billion name. If there’s one else out there with the same name as me contact me. Even if you only have my first and last name. I already know there’s a Movie Director name Mark Pellington.

I like to live my life by logic; nothing else. What I mean by logic is: whatever make sense to me at a giving moment in time.

In my head I strongly believe that I am too sane to be insane. I don’t really think I know the meaning of the word stress; I mean, I do know what the word mean, but I don’t think I know the feeling. Is something wrong with me?

Also in my head: my insights to life are better than one’s, by far. I understand that maybe every individual say the same thing in their heads; I understand. I tend to treat life as if it were a game. Well, if you really think about it: IT IS a game; the only difference is: in life you only get one “man” (1up), one player to play with. Since I have one player to play with, I like to roll the dice a lot. I think my awareness is at a very high level. I like to call it my “spider sense”. Since my awareness is at a high level, I tend to analyze every thought in my mind in depth. I understand the value of patience, and the value of time. with those two understandments, I believe, by time my life is over I could say: damn, that was fun.

People are afraid of chances, they are afraid of changes. Every individual seeks one goal in general…  That goal is: to live a great life. Since the word great is on the positive side of the linear scale of life, that consist of no negative feelings: no stress, no depression, no anxiety, none of those feelings where you’re not enjoying life.

C’mon, even though, one can’t really explain the meaning of life; the real meaning of this whole life experience, and the reason(s) why? Basically, The one solid answer for the Who’s, the What’s, the When’s, the Where’s, and the Why’s of the meaning of life.

Everyone knows we live, then we die. No one who’s alive know the feeling of death, or know what death is. Every individual have their takes on what, and how death is. Here is mine: death is like a dreamless sleep that you never awake from. Now that I think about it as I’m typing this: I just think Your thoughts that make you who you are, fades away. I have a theory: when you know you’re dying, try to calm down, and focus  on one thought in your head; I think you’ll fade off to that thought.

Everyone has their own answers, or their own reason to the meaning of life. But me, I just say no one really knows the answer. Maybe one day we’ll find out the answer, but that’s no time soon. Till then…